Hey You Cool Kid!

I think you’re amazing, so fun, funny, clever and I’m kind of in awe that you even exist.

I mentioned to you at one point that I actually had no plans to date till you messaged me. And by that I meant on any serious or emotional level. But then when you wrote to me I just had to find out if maybe I could now. Though I didn’t think I was emotionally available I was thinking I might be for the right person. But I’m slowly getting better at knowing myself and accepting myself.  You are the right person or a right person, but where I’m at right now is that I’m not emotionally available. I DO like you, but I know what love and strong feelings feel like and I’m not there which I assure you is entirely a reflection on me.  I’m pretty happy in general, my cup feels full and I do enjoy being single’ish right now. At this moment in time there is no person or being in the multi-verse (I know you like the sci-fi references ;) that I’d want to date in a traditional sense.  Hence this is no reflection on you I can fully assure you. 

This dating thing is a lot about timing. Earlier in 2015 I was looking for something different and dated a girl for a couple of months. We ended up not quite working out but it’s because she decided she might still want to have kids and that ship has sailed for me.   That is when my profile is from and I realize I would hence need to update it to be more current in terms of what I’m seeking, though honestly just figuring that out. 

I’m assuming your profile is accurate and what you’re looking for.  I’m thinking you’re looking for one committed person with a goal of long term. And that is awesome. I wish that’s what I was looking for, even hoping a little and needing to see, but its really not me right now.  

Tonight my best guy friend/biz partner in Colorado has the rare night off from his young kids. He is totally pumped to hang out so I’m going to go hang out with him. He’s married and in the thick of it so I connect with him when I can.  You are welcome to come and drink with us. 

I would enjoy getting together again but probably need to first or at that time figure out what our relationship looks like so no one gets surprised.   This is me trying to communicate clearly, not sure I’m always good at it. 

I’m happy to talk on the phone later too (after I drop my kiddos off). But certain things I’m marginally better at writing. Was thinking about this last night but too sleepy to think clearly.